Looking Forward to a Better Year

I'm going to try that random stream of thought kinda post...so just bear with me...

So, that last post I did - the one with the Charlie Brown clip? - yeah, well, I didn't know that would be the day before I'd go to work the next night, end up nearly collapsing, and being rushed to emergency surgery.  But more on that in a bit...

This being the last day of 2010, I've got to say that I had a pretty damned good year.  I'm healthy, I'm alive (thanks to my co-workers at the local medical center I work for), I have a man whom I'm over the moon about, and hell, we even got married.  And then the last half of December turned into a shitstorm and came completely crashing down around my feet.

All I have to say is this -- while we did pretty well this year, I'm looking for 2011 to be a new start for me, a better year for John, and one that I'm actually able to pause every day and just thank God that I'm alive.  There is the other alternative, the one where I wouldn't be here, writing up a blog post while I'm waiting for chicken to cook in the oven, counting down the last hours of the year 2010.  Yeah, I could be dead.

But I'm not trying to be morbid; I am still trying to sort things out in my head and come to terms with the fact that a helluva lot happened in the past week and a half.  My surgery was emergent because I had neglected to take care of myself and hadn't been to the doctor in way too long.  (Some sort of health professional I am...)  But that nonsense is going to stop and from here on out, I'm going to be a straight by-the-book girl and make my doctors' appts and actually keep them.  Of course, for the next month, I have to if I want to get these staples out of my gut, but you catch my meaning.

So, yeah, I'm making a resolution -- take better care of myself!  Oh yeah, and read more books.  *snort*  I have plenty of time on my hands with my leave from work to do that now...